An interesting subject this one, hence me reading it. Ok so this is a bit of a long one!
Going back to my roots so to speak taught me alot, whilst in Siberia, part of my teaching was to visit with the Ancerstors. Literally!
I was taken into some caves and into the burial area. There neatly on ledge's were the physical remains of my Ancestors. Due to the permafrost and the dry cold these were preserved amazingly well. No I didn't go rummageing around amongst them that was not the reason that I was taken there and would have been majorly disrespectful. But the tattooes on exposed skin etc that I saw were very clear and detailed, and the Caribou pelts that covered them still had the fur one etc.
The reason that I was taken to see them was to teach me to pick up on their past memories or experiences and to know that I hold all of this within myself. What ever happend to those remains in a physical sense didn't really mater, What did mater was that I had to learn to access them through myself.
It wasn't a morbid experience at all it was actually a rather enlightening and intrigueing one. Out of respect we left an offering and burt some ceder. I was then given a handful of stone beads that were on the floor in that cave. I still have them and wouldn't part with them for anything. From the eyes of a living person today yes it was a great archilogical find. But to us they are our ansetors and must be treated with the respect that they justly deserve.
It did conect me and bought it home in a very real way that I am very much part of those people, they still live in me in variouse ways, and i now know that if i need there help I can look with in.
Do I worship them? No not really, but I have total and utter respect for them. We celebrate there lives once a year on the shortest day and throw a big feast for them. I still do this every year.
During my stay I visited those caves a few more times, but each time a part of what I was being taught. I learn't that I could meet there spirit forms if you wish to call them this in a specific place in meditation, some were and are great spirits, others I wouldn't really want to be around to much. Most were warrios of variouse kinds, or healers or numerose other things. But all are part of my gentic make up, they still survive to this day with in my bones and blood. So they are part of me very much.
I was also taught her that our Ancestors are not only from our genetic past, but they are our gentic future as well, these can also be conected to in variouse ways, if the need should ever arrive. But I have never really had the need yet to do this work, I'm to preoccupied with a million other things. Besides my childern are my genteic future.
Saying this though it was a very useful experience going there and visiting with them , at the end of my last visit due to variouse outside reasons we sealed off those caves so that all the generations that lay within them can do so in peace. I hope that I was one of the last people to ever look in there and see what I did and it was an honour to have been able to do so. But to me here and now, I use the skill that I was taught to work with them and I look within for there help.
Somethings will always out in the blood though, one of the most odviouse is my diet, before I went out there as well as after, my natural choice in diet follow's very closely that of there own, yet my current family have been raised here in the EU for several generations.
Yet I still crave the traditional diets of both sides of my heritage, and pretty much stick to them. Of my 2 children, one follows her father's genetics more than mine and he's very much of Celtic blood,the other follows mine, again this is most easily shown in our food choices.
Now I have not forced these choices on either child, because my preference is to a more game based diet with alot of smoked or salted foods and fish. Very few veggies, but looking at my ancestors diets this is what they ate. I wouldn't give these kinds of foods to a child in any large amount . But one deffinatly go's and raids the fridge and pantry and this is what she choses herself. I just keep it to a minimum. This is also the child that has my rare blood group.
The other is following much more a vegetable and grain based diet, she also has her father Blood group. The blood and DNA results are due to some archilogical research that i'm involved in. Which is thowing up for me some very interesting information about ancestors and the past. But that's anther story.
All in all I am what my ansestors were, their genetic make up and their memories, I only have to head back within me to find these answers to these questuion's. I can physically never return to that village , it is no longer there, as for my relitive's and people on this side of my heritage very few are left, I am one of the last. The few that are have scattered themselves to the four winds.
My pearent's were never together, and I seldom see either of them. If I have my wish I will only remain in contact with one of them. My grandpearents have moved on the their next circle of existance and stepped away form this one. This leaves me one contact from my family on this side, my Aunt who though we are close has her own path in life so we don't meet much.
I can and do visit Canada periodically when I have the means to do so and will do so. But this is way in the future, I have been here and love the place, if anythng it feels more of my home than anywhere else.
But I am not alone or unconected with either sides of my heritage, becuase I carry it within me where ever I go. We all do, we just each have to find our own ways to gain access to this.
Siksika