QUOTE(opalmoon @ Sep 18 2008, 10:05 PM)
i can tell you the gods get ordered around alot in this house. they drink rather alot of absinthe as well.
*Laughs loudly* Yup my drinks cabinet is never complete without a bottle of absinthe scurried away in the back, and I've become rather partial to a nip or two myself as a result.
On a serious note Pagan Boy, I know you said that you didn't want to fork out for book but I would thoroughly reccomend trying at least to get the following on inter-library loan.
"Techniques of High Magic" by Skinner and King, which is an excellent step by step guide to learning and practising Ceremonial Magic with a solitary bent, it is packed full of achievable exercises, some of which could carry over into daily solitary practise even if you decide that CM isn't your thing.
and
"High Magic" by Frater U.'.D.'., again an execellent source book, it approaches the concept of Ritual/Ceremonial magic in a different way to the above, where as Skinner and King try and provide a sort of Curriculum text book with a systemic approach, Frater U.'.D.'.'s is more sort of "here is a tool kit" type approach.
Both of the above are more digestible than some of the older and more high brow tomes out there written by the likes of Crowley and Regardie. Lol my first book on CM was Regardies "The Tree of Life" and had I not been such a cantankerous old cow I suspect it could have put me off CM for life, I would never want to inflict the brain squelching ooze that reading it caused on any one, I swear Regardie swallowed a dictionary and then attempted to use every word in it in each paragraph, the guy was seriously verbose. So I would firmly suggest you start modern and work your way back to the fore fathers if and when you get more interested.