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Losing My Way?


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When I first realised I was a pagan, I took my time meditating and feeling my natural way, to figuring out which path I was following. I finally realised that what I was doing most closely fitted the label "Hedgewitch" and that as far as gods go, I was most comfortable with celtic deities and esp Herne (ok, so some would say Anglo -Saxon version of Cern.... etc but thats teh name Im comfrotable using).

 

Anyways, since becoming pregnant, I feel I have lost touch with everything I believe and have little or no magickal energy in me. I dont feel connected to nature or the woodland I love. This has left me feeling a bit lost.

 

So, Im wondering if its purely the hormones, or if its a signal of something deeper? Does this happen to most pagans after a while? Have you wavered or changed paths? HOw did you know if what you believed was changing?

 

Hmmmmm, just not sure what or who I am atm. Anyone else been through this?

 

Tree

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When you first joined this site, when I first 'met' you, you were looking for an escape. Your long term relationship had broken down and you had three children to mother.

 

Your situation has changed completely since then.

 

You're now in a stable relationship again, you're expecting another child, your partner has just moved in with you.

 

No wonder you feel different! You probably don't have time to think about what day it is, never mind think about your spirituality.

 

You're well grounded, don't go chasing it. Be happy with who you are and know that the connection to nature is always there.

 

In any case, apart from your physiological and domestic situation, I think everyone feels a little bit distant from nature at this time of year as the earth sleeps and the days are short.

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Remembering how I felt when I was pregnant and the emotional mess with all the hormones sloshing round, I would say don't stress about it, give it time and see how you feel after baby comes.

 

My belifies have changed and evolved over time, some things become more important, other less, and sometimes my faith has 'gone' for extended periods. It has come back though :D

I've herd on forums of many folk going through such a change, some call it the Dark Night of the Soul, where they don't know if the path they are on is the right one, or if they should give up altogther. I'm sure other folks will be able to give better advice, I'm not very articulate :D

 

 

I hope you find the answers you look for, and you enjoy your pregnancy and new baby when they arrive.

 

*hugs*

Isil

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Have to agree with the other posts, it happens to all of us, especially when life gets hectic. Try not to worry about it too much, just deal with life as it comes and one day you'll suddenly realise that it's back.

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It happened to me recently, hun, and i'm not pregnant.

 

Dont worry about it, it will all come back when you are ready to feel it. You've got other things to concentrate on that are just as important.

 

Be happy. enjoy being a mummy again and just go with the flow.

 

BB from TTT

 

PS cant wait to see you again at Stirling

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Sometimes, in the early days, we try to hard to find the pidgeon hole that we should sit in. It gives us certainty and comfort to say 'THIS' is what I am. Time passes, we grow more comfortable with what we are, we learn a little bit more, life shapes and alters us as we go along and we can find the pidgeon hole doesn't really fit anymore. It doesn't mean it's all wrong, or that anything dying we're just evolving.

 

Don't worry.

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It happened to me recently, hun, and i'm not pregnant.

 

 

 

BB from TTT

 

 

 

Are you sure , you never know what's floating about in those hot tubs!

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PMSL!

 

What everyone else has said - just go with the flow pet - a LOT is happening beneath the surface. Think Springtime... :lol:

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hon your pregnant this is time you connect with your baby so your path will naturally take a back seat. enjoy your pregnancy you will find your path will come back on its own soon enough. :lol:

 

i agree with everyone else just realx dont stress about this and before you know it everything will soon fall into place.

 

good luck with the baby hon :)

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I seem to remember similar posts from other pregnant people...

 

Your path at the moment is to grow your baby. And I can't think of anything more in tune with nature than growing a baby! Yes you feel tired and crappy, yes you feel like a zeppelin, yes you have enough hormones to float a battleship (I hated being pregnant) but it's a great gift we women have.

People often forget just how much it takes out of you, mentally, phyically and emotionally, just being pregnant. That little creature is living off everything you have, they are the perfect parasite. :lol:

Do the whole bovine thing and enjoy :)

BM

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It happened to me recently, hun, and i'm not pregnant.

 

 

 

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Are you sure , you never know what's floating about in those hot tubs!

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Ooh er....better just check. Nope definitely not pregnant, just fat :)

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Thanks for the advice folks. Think I"ll take it and just relax and stop fretting about it.

 

BM I shall do the bovine thing and ch ill out lol. Got my fella to help me do thaa.....(sorry cat pon keyboard). He's got me playing WOrld of Warcraft, so if I get stressed I kill things :lol:

 

Tree xx

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